Just a small post !

My body weight is an issue for me.

I know it should not be. I am not skinny anymore, not that I was skinny to begin with, but I used to be a bit thinner. Got about 10 lbs to my ~healthy weight~ : I feel fat. I am still wearing XXS in Le Château sizing and XS every other place.

Japanese fashion magazines are probably one of the main reason. Seen this on Gyaru Secret this week :

What did I though at first sight ?

"They should lose weight." "They are fat." "Omg, 50 kg !"

Things are... they are clearly not fat. My body is similar to theirs right now. I already knew that publicity and the like was altering our beauty standard and perception, but I wasn't aware it was to that extent. I am not anorexic. However, if my friends were not there to help me to realise that I am fine, I would probably get very near of anorexia or bulimia. I am eating choco chips muffins as I am writing this post, but later today, I will allow myself to eat only low calories food...

At least, I told myself to be that skinny was not only ugly, but also highly unhealthy. If I looked like this, I would gain some kgs. So, I may have hope.

Don't forget you are beautiful, everyone !

Now, I just need to know that it is true for me too.

Until the next time... Bye bye~ !