Just a small post !

My body weight is an issue for me.

I know it should not be. I am not skinny anymore, not that I was skinny to begin with, but I used to be a bit thinner. Got about 10 lbs to my ~healthy weight~ : I feel fat. I am still wearing XXS in Le Château sizing and XS every other place.

Japanese fashion magazines are probably one of the main reason. Seen this on Gyaru Secret this week :

What did I though at first sight ?

"They should lose weight." "They are fat." "Omg, 50 kg !"

Things are... they are clearly not fat. My body is similar to theirs right now. I already knew that publicity and the like was altering our beauty standard and perception, but I wasn't aware it was to that extent. I am not anorexic. However, if my friends were not there to help me to realise that I am fine, I would probably get very near of anorexia or bulimia. I am eating choco chips muffins as I am writing this post, but later today, I will allow myself to eat only low calories food...

At least, I told myself to be that skinny was not only ugly, but also highly unhealthy. If I looked like this, I would gain some kgs. So, I may have hope.

Don't forget you are beautiful, everyone !

Now, I just need to know that it is true for me too.

Until the next time... Bye bye~ !

Rush and Défilé and camwhoring ?

Aaah~ !

It is again this time of the year for us, in Canada. End of the term, exams are next week and bye bye, see you next Fall, University ! Studying and papers are time consuming as usual. It is a bit depressing how much I am no life right now. I don't even webshop or only have a look ! I don't have the time. (;__;)

But from next Friday, I will be free !

Or not totally because I will go crazy because of my soon-to-be move to Europe. Oh, well... I shall think no further than next week for now. My german oral examination worries me very much. Talking about 10 minutes in german after 14 courses seems too much. 

I enjoy learning german. It is a beautiful language. I used to hate it back then, tough. A lot of ''boring'' words seems to be wonderful when I name them in this language : Kugelschreiber (pen) is one of my most loved ones.

Last week was the NadeshiCon défilée.

I think it was nice. That was my first défilée (and first convention ever), so I can't compare. I was fun to do, even if I thought I was not "right enough" to make part of the défilée. I mean, I love koakuma kei but I don't consider myself as a gyaru, let alone a koakuma gal. However, I did my best and I loved the experience. Para para dancing was especially fun. I was too slow and did some mistakes. We did not practiced the Seisou no aquarion routine together very much, only a couple of time on the morning. I would have needed a lot more. Yuki Hareem's girls were awesome ! Many, the leader, helped me with the make up.

She also done my (fake) nails for that day. It was freaking long. I had to ask everyone for anything. How do you do, girls ? They are pretty, don't you think so ?

That's about it for now. Take care, everyone !

 

Until the next time, bye bye~ !